EVAfrommexico
Mexico
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Paul says: Did you just pick up a Koran and read? Did you meet a Mexican Muslim? Did they learn from a Muslim? It’s not asking or forcing, it’s teaching. But no matter. . Eva says: Well, fine, Im going to share it with u: Islam came into my life in a very strange way, I was living a very difficult time, I came to deny life and God, I used to smoked a lot, I took medicine for sadness I lived as embers always were burning my heart, asking why my bad luck got me there. Anxiety fulled my feelings and usually negative thouths came to my mind about how ppl in past hurt me., and despite my job, my husband, my family, I was not happy, I was not full, and this got me frustration and deep sadness. My mood was terrible and usually I fright to everyone. That was nothing that makes me fill fine, and this last during years. One day suddenly the problems came to more, and slowly I was losing goods in life and problems increase as long as despair came over me, so I wished to die. First, I lived panic, then I found there was no reason to follow so I planned my death. Suddenly a muslima entered into my messenger (https://www.facebook.com/khadijah.oliver), and then, that lovely woman who found me (I don´t know how), wasd there, she was extremely well educated, so respectable and patience with me. I remember I told her, God y demon are the same, lol, such stupid things I used to cry to her, but she never let me alone. She explained me time after time, and I owe her that teaching. She is from UK and sent me some books (I still have te postage). Ahamdulillah I could get a Koran, and when I read chapter 17 of the Qur’an, I wept deep, how wrong I was. I remember my sister told me “cry sister, and clean ur sins”... oh how deep I cry, so much. Well, it tooks us almost 3 years to find muslims in my country, I prayed to Allah, “pls let me find a place to worship you”, and finally Alhamdulillah I found them. My sister told me “some ppl are good, some ppl are bad, but u go there to worship Allah, and nothing more, ok?”, so, I become muslim one sunshine afternoon Alhamdullillah, I remember I have no job, no money in my pocket, and a looooot of problems, but the day I did Shahada it was the best of my life, I had never lived an experience such like that, I was totally happy, I said: “I need no more but Allah”, since that day Allah takes care of me, and problems disapeared slowly, but Im not afraid. I can’t live without Allah in my life, it is like if I were in a shipwreck and drowned me, that was horrible, frightening, but suddenly I found a board that took me to the edge of a beautiful place warm, pleasant and I don’t want to be out of there.That is my experience. p.d. u dont bother me :)
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