I cannot tell you what to believe (that is something you will have to come to on your own), but I will tell you why I personally have faith in and follow Jesus Christ. I grew up without any sort of religious upbringing but always believed that there was a God. I always wanted to find favor with God, so I would do whatever I felt like it took to be a good person. I'd stay away from "bad" stuff like drinking and sex and I'd go out of my way to do good things for others . And I'd pray. I thought I was overall a "good person" on the outside, but I knew that on the inside that I would still think malicious (bad/evil) thoughts that were rooted in anger, jealousy, greed, etc. So basically, it seemed like everything good I would ever do to "please God" would be counterbalanced by something bad or just simple ugliness within if that makes sense. So then for a while I was feeling hopelessness. I learned about many different religions (similar to what you are doing right now) and found that they were all sets of rituals and things that you must do in order to find favor with God (or the Gods). But in learning of these things, I thought to myself "what if I can't live up these expectations well enough?" and felt that all of these rituals and things to "earn my salvation" would be even further bondage to me from knowing God because I would constantly have the pressure hanging over my head to live up to these standards. I even experimented with a few buy always felt so much pressure to "live up" to it. So basically I was feeling the same way you feel when you have written in this forum. Not too long after, I nearly lost my life in a car accident. It was then that God revealed to me that the reason I felt so much weight and hopelessness is because I was in bondage to my own sin, and that I could be spiritually freed from this bondage. Having grown up in a country where most people call themselves Christians, I had heard the story of Jesus Christ dieing on the cross and then being resurrected to take away our sins, but it never really made that much sense to me. I didn't really understand the significance or implications of it. But then after I realized the source of why I felt so weighed down all the time in my life, Jesus' story made perfect sense to me and quite honestly it suddenly became the greatest news I had ever heard! This is why the Bible refers to it as "Good News"
I can give you a few verses from the New Testament in the Bible which sums up my faith: The first is Romans 3:23 which states "for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God". Everyone is in the same predicament…none of us are perfect, and none of us "measure up" on our own accord. So, according to this, no one who has posted on this topic is spiritually "better" than you because we ALL sin. We all miss the mark. We all fall short. Even if we live a prescribed religious life, we all sin. The second is Romans 6:23 which says "For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord". Notice the difference between a wage and a gift. A wage is something that you earn by your own merits, but a gift is something that is freely given to you whether you think you deserve it or not. The third is Romans 5:8 which gives us more insight to what this "gift" is: But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. The reason I bolded "still sinners" is to emphasize the fact that we don't have to do a bunch of good deeds or perfect ourselves before receiving this "gift" of eternal life. God reaches down to us with this gift where we are as soon as we are willing to receive it. Here is another verse supporting that: For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—not by works so that no one can boast – Ephesians 2:8,9. The definition of grace in the dictionary in this context is "the freely given, unmerited favor and love of God." Now how do you receive this gift of salvation/eternal life? Romans 10:9 makes it very clear: If you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. Similarly, Jesus said Himself: Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in - Revelation 3:20 I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. John 14:6 my experience was that I prayed telling God that I was sorry for my sins but that I wanted to place my faith in (believe in) Jesus and be forgiven and after that God affirmed to me that this was truth because I saw that my heart completely changed from the inside out and as I started to really read the Bible everything made so much sense. And I started to see prayers being answered. As previous posters have said, I feel that I know God personally now because, through Jesus, I am no longer separated from God by my sin. And I feel total freedom. Because I receive salvation by grace and not by rituals or "works", I am free to express my love and gratitude to God in worship and in prayer and in fasting and in giving without constantly fearing that it will affect God's love for me. And not as a ritual or something that I "have to do". Instead it is an outpouring of my heart and my love for God. In other words, I pray because I love God and because I want to; not because I feel like I have to in order to find favor with Him. The same with any other thing that is "religious". It is no longer "religious" because it is something that I enjoy and love doing and not something that I feel that I have to do to earn merit with God. To me, this is such freedom!!!! Another thing I should mention is that you don't have to change your culture or anything like that to follow Jesus Christ. Anyone from any religious background or culture can follow Jesus because it is a decision of the heart. I don't say this to "sell" you my faith, but so that if you ever did decide to follow Jesus, you won't have to give up your Indian culture or anything to do so. I hope that my post was not too long and boring, but I wanted to share with you my own personal journey in my faith. I will be praying for you as you continue to embark on your spiritual journey, and may God show you his endless love and grace!
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