Major Life Change

I am sitting here typing knowing that at any moment my life could take a dramatic turn.  You see I am on the threshold of making one of the most important life changes that anybody can go through, and that is I am about to become a mom for the first time.  It has been an amazing process and now the scary part begins.  I am not just talking about labor and delivery, which is terrifying, but also the fact that I am responsible for the welfare and upbringing of a child. 

Don’t get me wrong, I really want this.  I am so excited to meet my son and embrace this new chapter in my life. But it is also scary, like really scary.  Everyone keeps asking me if I am ready and my response is always, I think so, because how can one ever be truly ready?  I have all of the gear and for such tiny humans they sure require a lot of gear.  I think being ready though is a mental state and most people aren’t really ever there until they are in the throws of it.  It seems to be one of those things you just have to jump in headfirst and see how you do.  I hope I do well.

There are just so many unknowns.  What will he be like?  Will he ever sleep?  Will I ever sleep?  Will he be colicky?  Will I be patient enough?  I can really make myself crazy when I think of all of these things.  I also just have to take a deep breath and remind myself that millions upon millions of women have been doing this for centuries and surviving, so why should I be any different?  I can do this!