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        Everything is chance ,right?

         These days,I had thought a lot about family ,my relatives ,and myself. I don't wanna to hurt anybody's heart ,however ,sometimes ,I can't control myself,I wanna to protect myself from others speaking,which always hurt my heart deeply.I know ,I must bear it myself ,can not tell my parents ,also my friends .In a word ,I do not have courage to open my heart . I just wanna a quiet life,without the heart breaked sound.

         Bitter life!

        In 17-year ,I just know enjoy yourself in your life , do not pay any attention about the sadness,never.I always remind me giving much happy for others ,then ,you can catch orthers ' smile ,and , you can share others happiness.Ya ,there is no doubt that ,I always share others happiness ,not mine.When I feel sad,I wanna to have a walk alone.No purpose,just walk alone ,never know where should I go .I wanna to cry ,but I can't .In my school life ,my classmates and teachers think I 'm a living girl ,with many energies ,always struggle all the time ,is a excelent student .They never know ,I always scared for failure,I hate this feeling ,I always wanna to win in every chanllenges ,just like a net-pal says,''YOU 'RE A CONCEITED WOMAN.''I think ,he is right ,no doubt .There are many prais and abuse about me in school or my daily life,if u ask me ,do people like u .I think there are some like me ,but the other not ,why ?Because I never give a chance for them to know much more about me.

        The most love people ----My mamma,dad ,younger sister,and my grandpa.

        Firstly ,someone thinks u must love yourself before.Ya ,that's right ,but ,when I love myself enough ,I must love the others ,to give me much more forces towards .I love my family ,I don't wanna to leave them by no words .I just wanna to say ,sorry ,I gonna to make my dream come true.

        Let me fly in my own sky ,don't stop ,never give up.

         I wanna to be your CHILD'S ANGEL , protect u all the time ,bring much happiness for u ,never let u feel lonely and sadly,I 'll come back to u someday ,waiting for me .

         MY DEAR FAMILY .