CaN I CrY

I was born in a terrible dark night..:) My dad didn't wanted me born.. :) He didn't want me..But my mom wanted too much..So gave birth me! :)

Ohh Dawn..If I wasn't born, now i would be in Heaven! :))

I used to cry too much.. So my parents supposed that I am a idiot, insane :) then i learned reading, writting, letters, and Math with myself.. So proved that I am not an insane :D:D

Anway..

I spent most of my childhod near my grandmother in a great beautiful and big farm (about 7 months in a year) .. My parents were busy with their job. I didn't like travel with them city by city...So they left me near my grandparents..

I said ''Mother'' to my real mother after I was about 7-8.. I used to say ''Mother'' to my grandmother. ( and i still say Mother to my grandmother)

She was an Armenian..She knows a lot of languages..

Turkish, Kurdish, Armenian, Persian, Russian and Hebrew language... (but I have never heart a Turkish word from her mouth) She genereally used to talk in Kurdish!

I was a brave and naughy kid. REally I didn't afraid of dead..I was jumping from more than 4-5 meters.. How poor my legs :) I was swiming in a small pool, always... climbing trees... walking in tombs... I loved taking a knife near me... I cut many times my fingers.. :) Still I have a sign on my big finger..

I didn't have girl friend... I was loving boys..Haha :) Viva Boys! I swam naked with boys in pool... :) Haha they are naked too :) (ohh don't be angry with me, I was a kid)

My hairs genereally were short as a boy.. also terrible yellow.. (Dawn I hate being a blonde)

Hahaa.... Also i was loving eating soil..REally... :) Still I love soil..And eat it in a clean place... There was an important tomb there.. A man's tomb.. He was an important person for ISLAM.. Ppl were praying and reading Kuran near his tomb... :D:D I was loving being near him too... but not for pray!!! >> To eat soil of his tomb... Ohh I am terrible! :) To eat soils of tomb are terrible.. :) Ohh but so delicious! :) now you can understand why I love deaths so much :)

Anway.. I started to live with my parents after started school... That year I left my grandparents..So parents came and took me near them.. We were in our car.. My grandparents home was far from our real home.. (18-20 hours with car)  When we were going to our home, we had a terrible bad accident..

A big truck hit us..

Nothing happened to me.. :) I was lucky.. but my parents weren't as lucky as me..they stayed about more than 1 month at hospital..  But Thanks to ALlah, they are still in life! :) :))))

Anyway... I would start the school that year..But after this accident my parents didn't let it...

But i already knew reading and writting..And a lot of things of Math! :)So i cried, cried, cried :))

The one day, my aunt registereed me at school..But my parents didn't knew it..:) It was a suprise for them :)

Then years went fastly.... So fastly...!

Anyway..then i started to study, grow up, learn :)

Getting bad, getting lazy, getting afraid of life.... Getting stupid and selfish!

But i wasn't so when i was a kid!!!!!

Now i am in E-baby and so feel so lucky to be here :D I love you e-baby... I love all my friends.. Everyone has diffirent means for me..they are my colour!

Muackss for all you..I didn't leave you..Just I have to be far a bit from here :D:D

I love you..I love you! :)