iRraCh

It's a weird day...I feel some feelings that i've never felt and i think some things that i've never thought before...Sometimes people can change our life in a rather strange way...I love someone...I say it again...I couldnt count how much i said it before...Again and again, everytime i believe in this is a true love...I dont know how much real my feelings are...Can it change my life just cos i feel it? Can i change my life just for it? I ask first myself many questions that i wanna know their answer...I could answer all of them before...But why cant i answer this now?
Am i scared of reality of everything or it is just a feeling that i'll say it wasnt real as others?I hope it wont be real...Till today i believed in i fell in love to many ppl...And now im lookin to my past and i see that they were all not real...i just liked them...but why? why did i like all this people? my heart is answering...'cos they were different'...yes they were...they werent like ppl as i had met before...they were all got different dreams,different worlds...Ppl always like differrent things....I did the same...but i understand it now...Different things r nice and bad at the same time...I got it with you...I cant say your name....It is not hate or sth like this...It is so different...I cant get angry with you...I cant forget the things that you said...but who are you? what is the difference of you? why do i that care you...
When i lie to you i lie myself...When i close my eyes i see first ur smile...Your hairs,eyes...I dont care...I like ur smile...I miss you even though i cant feel you...
but why? i dont know...it is what i cant answer...you r the question that i can never answer...I cant solve it...
People say world is so little...I see now it is so huge...You are close to me as a part of my body...At the same time u r so far away from me...you are after oceans...oceans seperate us...but i dont care oceans i still want you...even i dont know why do i want you...who cares? i cant forget the beautiful things that u said to me...how can i forget?...you are so cute...sometimes when i talk with you i can guess what will you answer to my questions...Dont get it false...it is not cos i know you...it is cos os you are me...and i am you...when i said that i want you, you said me that u r the happiest man in the world...i believed in you,i still believe...I believe in all things that you say,that you do with all my heart...but im scared if i couldnt have you...it is a decision...im afraid of dont choose you...when you want me to live my life with you i was just so happy...and now why am i afraid? we couldnt...we couldnt be together...you had a relationship with another girl...and me...i could never forget you...i've never wanted someone else in my life...but i didnt get angry to you...how can i get angry to you?...i believed in you,i still believe...you said that i am different than everyone...you are me and i am you...you wouldnt give up love me and i wouldnt give up love you...we've never talked for a while...i tried to be far away from ur life for make u happy with ur girl... i didnt want you to be confused...but you couldnt...after you i started a relationship with someone...his smile was just like urs...but he wasnt like you...he wasnt cute as you...nobody would be like you actually...
yesterday we started to talk again...how cute you are...i heard thet u had an accident...i was afraid...then i realized you mean everything for me...u r the meaning of my life...you were...im happy...i believed in you, i still believe...you said me that ur relationship going bad...i didnt be happy i became sad for you...now i just wanna see you happy...with me or without me...dont matter...just be happy...how cute you are...wanting you was hurting me but you worth it...you sent me a letter about ur feelings...i cried when i read this...how cute you are...u were studying on history at universtiy...u said that u changed your part...you will be a policeman...i asked you why...you told me ur accident...told me that a policeman saved you...and u wanna save and help to ppl...when you were saying this i reealised that i still want you much...you arent different...you are same...you are completely same with me...thats why i cant give up to want you...i cant throw out you in my mind...yesterday i asked me second time...u wanted me to be with you and come there near you...i thought about it all day...are you that important for me to leave my all life? but now i know... you arent...nobody can be...but i still want you...it is not a love it is more than love...i love you so much...i will always love you...i will never forget you...as you said to me before 'if i have to swim all the ocean for see you a second i will do it' ... yes i would do the same with you...

You said me to you gave something so important from Canada...You gave me your heart...Our hearts will always beat together even though we are far away from each other...Je t'aime...


written for the meaning of my life...(Marc...)


by Irem Rachel a.k.a iRraCh...

Many ppl around world know something about Turkey,about us...Some of them never heard of us and most of them think that we are cruel...I wodnered why...And started to search for it...I have many friends from all around the world.First I talked with them...They said their opinions without lie to me...I listened them carefully and realised something that made me think of it...Many of them started to sentences with ‘before I met with you’...And then I realised that what is the main problem...It is clear...Because they dont know us...And we dont try to know each other cos of prejudice...but I dont say sth for it cos they are right on it...they learned us like this...All i want to say is we are all the same...You r ppl,we are ppl...Yes we have some different cultural,religional difference but it cant be a reason for being different...We all have dreams,wants,lives...Why dont we try to know each other?I realised that when I started to have foreign friends...Many ppl think bad about us cos of sth bout past...

Armenian genocide...Many thing happened...Our ppl died...Armenian or Turkish...dont matter...Peole is ppl...Past is past...how can we live live with lookin past?Isnt it true?

We live same life as you...nothing much nothing less..It is all the same...and you think bad about us cos of our religion...Islam...Many ppl live here with have different religion...So what? We are all human...Who cares what is our religion? We’ve all got choices...

Islam doesnt mean being cruel or bad...It is just a religion which makin ppl happy...For sharing sth...All Turkish women dont use scarf...Some of them yes,some of them not...It is their choices,their perspective...who can say sth for it?I am Turkish and my family,my friends,many ppl around me are Turkish...Does it mean that we are cruel and bad?Why ppl dont give a chance to know each other?It disturbs me much...Many ppl think Turkish ppl have some problems with some countries cos of past...It is a big lie...I love Greeks and Armenians...They are human,we are human...Why do I hate them without know them?It is so ridicilous...I love all ppl around world...dont matter what is their nationality...most important thing is who they are...Do you think girls and boys dont talk with each other much?No it is not true...I have many boy friends and I like them much...And I bet that many Turkish ppl think like me too...If someone not is it about his/her nationality?No it isnt...We have many beautiful things except bad thing in our country as other countries...Why dont ppl see this? All people were according to see bad things?

Turkey is a country in half Europe and half Asia...like a brigde of 2 different mainland...we have 3 different sea around our country...Aegean Sea,Mediterrean and Black Sea...And we have one sea in our country...It is Marmara Sea...We all like having fun like the other ppl in the world...Of course we have parties and clubbings...Many foreign ppl come here for visit or they live here...do you think we do bad things t othem? If someone do is it about his/her nationality? Never! We know that they are human like us...We have many foreign teacher in our school...We love talk and learn new things from them...Do you think we dont travel?Of course not! We love learn ur culture,ur life style and respect you...We live in a same world...All difference is we look a same world from different windows...Thats why we can look our world in a different perspectives...It is wonderful...All we need is save ouself from prejudice...If we can do it world would be better for everyone...I love all humans around the world an wanna know them...Wanna look at the world from their perspectives...dont matter who you are or where are you from...Being human and respectful is everything...We all need this...for get everything that you know and try to know us please...

Take Care

By Irem...

I WANNA TELL YOU STH...I MET WITH MA OLD FRIENDS YESTERDAY...AND SOEM GUY SAID ME THAT HE KNOWS ME FROM SOME SITE...I THOUGHT HE MEANT EBABY OR MYSPACE BUT HE SAID SOME SITE ELSE...AND I STARTED TO RESEARCH IT ON INTERNET AND YEA HE WAS RIGHT!

I FOUND 2 DIFFERENT FAKE PROFILES OF ME ON INTERNET THAT SUCKS!!!

I JUST WANTED TO WARN EVERYONE IF YOU SEE THEM PLZ DONT BELIEVE THEM...

THEY HAVE NETLOG AND VAMPIREFREAKS!!!

AND THEY USE MY NICKNAME (IRRACH)

TAKE CARE...